A Resurrection Only Occurs After A Death.

When Ryan and I met in 2010 we were in a season of death with the passing of our spouses, & this death included a burial of lifelong dreams and expectations.

The next few years we enjoyed a resurrection as our lives merged and birthed new realities: our marriage & family, a simple life in rural America, the birth of a book, a teaching career, a non profit & another child. Lots of growth & beauty.

We now find ourselves back in a season of decay; broken bodies over the past year: Ryan’s, mine, and Luke’s; broken ideals and dreams as we restructure & determine how we’ll proceed, lots of unanswered questions and concerns & the burial of systems that no longer serve us emotionally or spiritually, and we wait because we know. We know because we’ve been here before – this is familiar soil, deep & dark & rich soil where we’ve been planted and now we await our reemergence into the light.

We wait for our resurrection.

And we are confident that it will arrive in due time because that’s how life works.

Everything remains in motion; a continuous movement of death and resurrection, waves upon waves washing away the brokenness and moving what remains to the shore – natural disasters and coronavirus and despair not excluded – it’s all involved, collectively and individually; ashes to beauty and back to ashes again, circular movements until the maestro sweeps his baton for the last time & bows his head in holy reverence, that moment when his beloved creation leans into the finality & releases a labored breath – bursting through the birth canal into an everlasting resurrection.

And until then?

We just keep livin.

See Me Too – A Caregiver’s Plea

 

Dear mama with normal children,

Normal? Typical?

What’s politically correct you might wonder?

As do I and –

What is normal anyway?

Honestly, I’m not sure because I’m tired.

And I don’t spend my free time on political jargon

And I definitely don’t sleep well

And most of my waking hours I’m caring for someone else

Or finding resources that will hopefully make our life a little bit easier someday

Someday – a day that feels more and more like a unicorn lately.

You see, I’m a special needs mama to a 16 year old son.

And no, it’s not politically correct to call myself that

Because I am more than just special needs

Or so they say

But am I?

Because a pretty high percentage of my life revolves around my child and what we can or can’t do because of his limitations.

I often see you and your beautiful typical functioning children out and about in the world, and I’m envious.

Yes, I said that out loud.

And I’m not supposed to say those words because I have my miracle baby.

The child the experts said would never live

So there’s always guilt attached

To my envy. Continue reading “See Me Too – A Caregiver’s Plea”

The Cloud is Moving – Courage in the Midst of Change.

It oftentimes takes courage to say that something isn’t working anymore, and truthfully, it hasn’t worked for some time for us.

A little over five years ago our family left Michigan for a dream that included a simple life in rural Tennessee. This is how Ryan and I operate – we hear “GO!”, and we go. We married quickly, Ryan moved to Michigan within months of proposing, and we moved to Tennessee after seeing our current house once. We are decisive, informed, and not prone to obsessing much about how our decisions will be perceived by others outside of our immediate family. To reference a Biblical metaphor, we move with the cloud. Continue reading “The Cloud is Moving – Courage in the Midst of Change.”

Introducing The New & Improved JESSPLUSTHEMESS!

This is a quick post – my kids are still home for summer break – to tell you all –

I HAVE A NEW WEBSITE!

This has been months (maybe even close to a year!) in the making. I officially went live yesterday, and I am so incredibly proud of how it all turned out. Lisa Delaney has been the epitome of patience as she has sought to bring my vision of rustic jessplusthemess charm to life, and she succeeded beautifully.

There are lots of changes you’ll initially notice as the blog is no longer the focal part of the website as I seek to expand my jessplusthemess brand to include: merchandise, speaking, favorites, and recipes to name a few.

So, go ahead – poke around a bit. The Favorites and Store tabs are still a work in progress but the store will soon offer super hip and inspirational “just keep livin” apparel and the favorites will be all of my favorite things in life.

Oh, and as you’ll also see, if you subscribe to receive emails from me – which honestly, will just be blog updates for awhile until I find time to create a newsletter, you will also receive the introduction and first chapter of Sunlight Burning at Midnight FOR FREE!

Thank you as always to all of you who continue to support me on this wild ride I get to call my life.

Just keep livin!